Agar poocha Khuda ne kabhi
Koi hai tera apna?
Maangon gi mein maafi,
Taikun gi sar teray samnay,
Magar dil mein ho ga naam ek,
Dina, Dina, Dina..
Hello world! Here comes an ecstatic blogger who just entered her third trimester! Yeap, I'm expecting our first baby and I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am
I finally started feeling the baby move about 1 month or so ago and this is true heaven. It'll be too much to say I love this baby already but I absolutely adore the moments I'm sharing with her. From her kicking at the oddest hours to feeling her wriggle all around, I'm fascinated every single time. I have been so lucky to experience this and I just pray that everything goes smoothly and I can finally see my baby in a few more months
Alhamdullilah for everything!
The story of a Once-Upon-A-Time pregnant woman
I was 15-20 KGS above my normal weight, having the most difficult time adjusting to the married life in a new country and though it should have been a cherry on top, it was s h o c k I n g for me to find out about my pregnancy. I was hardly able to take care of myself and a surprise baby here?
Well, tears were shed, lethal words thrown towards my spouse and I really did think it was the end of the world. Until I accepted it and did everything I could. I slept right, ate right and did right by the tiny dot in my belly. Until it hurt. And I thought it was normal. Until my ultrasound. Until my medicines. Until the moment I couldn't hear the heartbeat. Until 3 weeks after when I aborted and flushed it down after 3 hours.
It was heartbreaking and I always shed a tear. I had decided I wanted a girl and prayed for one. I picked a name and I looked at the cutest clothes. I had planned my entire life in a matter of 4 weeks. Till I had nothing to look forward to.
Fuck you if you treat a miscarriage as a casual affair. If you think it was just an incident and everyone goes through it. Fuck you for not supporting your wives through it. Fuck you if 'it happens to everyone' was uttered even a single time by you.
It is a precious gift, a precious feeling and something that is only yours. It is something you should be open about, you should love and you should celebrate. It is natural, for fucks sake.
Celebrate it. Enjoy it.
Stuck at the green light.
You'd think life has some promising answers after a while but such is life. From being wild and young to being.. Well, not so wild and young anymore. When the weight you put on gets difficult to put off, it's not okay to run away from reality and music does not really help. Heartbreak is a thing that you hardly remember and sex and drugs are an actual thing, the green light does not let you move. And yet, you know, you're just moving forth. And you're still stuck. That make sense?
Come to think of it, the fault is all ours. We have been built in a way that we expect a lot from men. From books to movies, our expectations have always been for men to be ideal for us. Like they would understand, like they would be our support. Well, honey, fuck that. From father's, brothers to husband's, they can seriously take a hike. I refuse to let a man control my emotions to that extent, to affect me like he is the center of my universe. Let me tell you, love is one thing but expectations are another. Just know, there will always be disappointments because men were born weak and we don't get why it's this way because we were born to step over every weakness and be strong for ourselves. Be yourself and be unapologetically happy about the strong woman that you are. It's so worth enjoying yourself