Chapter 17

Stuck at the green light.

You'd think life has some promising answers after a while but such is life. From being wild and young to being.. Well, not so wild and young anymore. When the weight you put on gets difficult to put off, it's not okay to run away from reality and music does not really help. Heartbreak is a thing that you hardly remember and sex and drugs are an actual thing, the green light does not let you move. And yet, you know, you're just moving forth. And you're still stuck. That make sense?

Chapter 16.

Come to think of it, the fault is all ours. We have been built in a way that we expect a lot from men. From books to movies, our expectations have always been for men to be ideal for us. Like they would understand, like they would be our support. Well, honey, fuck that. From father's, brothers to husband's, they can seriously take a hike. I refuse to let a man control my emotions to that extent, to affect me like he is the center of my universe. Let me tell you, love is one thing but expectations are another. Just know, there will always be disappointments because men were born weak and we don't get why it's this way because we were born to step over every weakness and be strong for ourselves. Be yourself and be unapologetically happy about the strong woman that you are. It's so worth enjoying yourself

Chapter 15

I don't know what God intended when he made me feel a bit too much a bit too many times. Having bipolar disorder is something so lethal that makes you question your entire life. From the little things in life to the biggest moments, there are just questions in my mind now. I don't understand the word 'normal' since I learned that I am bipolar. Love, hate, confusion - every sentiment has a question mark at the end if it. My world got a bit too many question marks in it today and it's getting more difficult with every passing day. Judging things keeping in mind my illness has become a tedious task. It tires me and has taken a toll on my mind as well.
Being bipolar is not just a condition. It's a haunting fact that I just have to accept now.